Maybe I'm just holding on to nostalgia

I'm just trying to reclaim something long gone

Maybe we've outgrown this shit

Maybe I'm just pathetic, thinking I can save someone

Putting so much value on someone I've never met

Believing every word they said

I have to remember everything isn't about me

Its not about how I feel

I'm not being a good person to be praised

I'm not helping her for myself

I could send her $10,000 and never get a thank you

That's the way its supposed to be

She could ignore me and never give me a chance to help

Thats life

I can only accept what she chooses.

I can only wait

I can calm myself down from anything at this point by taking a deep breath and telling myself that it doesn't matter. But whenever I remember all that I did to you, how I pushed you a way, how I hurt you all year long. That does matter. Even though its in the past, I'm still living it now. I'm always going to live it. Your gone. Forever. There no bringing you back. If I get better you'll still be gone, if I die you'd never look for me, its over. There's no point in fighting against this anymore. It doesn't matter. I ruined everything. Its all my fault. This is just something that will hurt forever. This is why I want to kill myself.

It really hurts to find out your not important

Your not special

They don't need you

They lied, they can replace you

They will replace you

Whether the next person is genuine doesn't matter

As long as they're rid of you

The only thing worst that dying weak and powerless, forgotten and disposable, is living weak and powerless, forgotten and disposable

They're better off without you

They have everything they need

They have every one they need

Life goes on without you

Much better without you

Everyone wants to know that they'll be missed

We all want to do something that matters

No one wants to know that they' can be replaced

"Niggas like me, wasnt meant to go to heaven

We were meant to be alone, die hanging from a ceiling

Tried praying for forgivness but god told me to shut up..."

I've come to a conclusion that everything is useless

art means nothing

your knowledge will get you nothing but a good impression

ever noticed why kids go to school?

learn nothing?

get jobs?

studied or cheated, school is a screening process

The hard working studied to learn the information and got good grades

the smarter kids cheating and didn't get cought

and then there were the lazy kids that failed

proved they weren't hard working or cleaver enough to make it in society

they're not gonna work and they can't cheat

Art has no value

music is a simple text book process combined with a controversal image to make money

write about the same damn thing and make your music sound just like the others and you just need to find an audiance accepting of cliche

painting and graphiti only gets the attention of self richious sychophants

Satan feel from heaven and we dont have any great minds to engeneer a brighter future

we've resorted to basic animal instincts

survival

the wolves never knew more

Sacrifice your blood

Sacrifice your flesh

Sacrifice your hate

to feed the darkness